Pictures are amazing, especially when they bring back memories. For instance the picture above brings back a flood of memories for me. At the moment it was happening it was extremely sad.
I took this picture outside the sliding glass door of a Los Angeles hotel room on Dec 24, 2000. The weather and my mood were in sync. I was returning home after a failed relationship abroad. I was emotionally drained, in a fog (psychologically and literally) and it was Christmas.
The hot tub you see in the picture was definitely a lot of help. As I stepped into the hot tub I thought about being half way around the world the previous day. The fog added to the mystique of the experience. The fact it was Christmas Eve and the area around LAX was practically quiet added to the mystique even more.
Looking at the picture now I’m having second thoughts. Initially I was just thinking the foggy weather reflected my foggy ‘mood’. But then I started to think of the fog as a shield, kind of a protector to block out ‘the other stuff’ for now. Perhaps, in a way, helping me to heal and maybe even telling me to give it time. Which is almost always good advice after experiencing some type of trauma in ones life.
My thoughts then wandered to the last time I held him in my arms. So I let a lot of it go in that hot tub, all by myself, on a roof top at a hotel near LAX on Christmas Eve. I must admit, until I saw this picture, I don’t think I’ve thought of it before. So it is obviously not one of my more memorable Christmas Eves.
As the saying goes, a picture is worth a thousand words. I didn’t want to bore you to much so I didn’t use that many words.
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